[ the quick look chanced seconds before yields a pale sight, and he has to wonder just how unheard-of such things are, to rin. he thought he would get used to the cyclical reminders of the sheer polarity of their respective worlds and yet...
the loss of colour, the wide eyes - it speaks of more reminders, and he decides that those will never abate.
a shrug, nonchalant in its obscurity, ] Dunno. Was the start of my memories. An obedient dog in a kennel.
We were all implanted with a Spine. Source of all our enhancements. [ an off handed wave to the bandage across his neck. it felt odd, revisiting old shadows again. but they were always at his feet, after all, so the recollections come nauseatingly quick. ] See, the old hag wanted to create the perfect attack dog. And breed the perfect leader -
- most of our training was against older versions of similar experiments. First time I saw the Spine go berserk was on Lily - [ bitter, bitter name and even now his voice falters at it, ] - she tore a throat clean out. It was also when we started thinking about trying to escape the facility.
It was kind of a stupid idea but. We all fell hard for it. [ perhaps, to a point he fell hardest. after all, he accepted the old hag's proposal out of some inane need to save the rest. too blind to see what his own success would mean for them all. arthur had been right, of course. once this experiment had reached a success, they would be the ones put to slaughter and oh was it bloody and messy. ] Promises were made, that sort of thing. [ they had spoken of promises once before. then, he did not want to say more and maybe this is still all he will say but. rin was sharp, he'd string the implication of failure quick. ]
I guess that brings me to my point - the Spine. The whole purpose, like I said, was to make a leader - someone to master the rest of her mindless fucking army.
See, everyone had to get out of that place. Lily...Giovanni. They wanted to see real flowers - [ he wouldn't have mentioned that, hell, he shouldn't have mentioned it but the white beneath and around him, the delicate bloom served as catalyst. he sighs. ] - and the hag put me through a big test. First time I met Dog.
Funny thing was, she gave me a choice. I could have said no. But - I thought getting stronger would save everyone else. [ he leans back now, splays fingertips through the petals and finds the cold, smooth surface of the concrete and it feels better. it felt terrible, to have words as save leaving his mouth. he hardly even recognized the intonation of his own voice because saving was the last thing he had done.
hell, even when he thought he had set everyone free - part of a mechanism to cope, at war with self loathing - that wasn't true, was it? he failed. he failed lily, and he failed giovanni. the one that was left alive and still in the clutches of that perverted bitch.
so he lives with it all, guilt and hate as sharp as teeth. ] What you saw, a few days ago? That was the Spine going berserk.
so much speaking ;;
the loss of colour, the wide eyes - it speaks of more reminders, and he decides that those will never abate.
a shrug, nonchalant in its obscurity, ] Dunno. Was the start of my memories. An obedient dog in a kennel.
We were all implanted with a Spine. Source of all our enhancements. [ an off handed wave to the bandage across his neck. it felt odd, revisiting old shadows again. but they were always at his feet, after all, so the recollections come nauseatingly quick. ] See, the old hag wanted to create the perfect attack dog. And breed the perfect leader -
- most of our training was against older versions of similar experiments. First time I saw the Spine go berserk was on Lily - [ bitter, bitter name and even now his voice falters at it, ] - she tore a throat clean out. It was also when we started thinking about trying to escape the facility.
It was kind of a stupid idea but. We all fell hard for it. [ perhaps, to a point he fell hardest. after all, he accepted the old hag's proposal out of some inane need to save the rest. too blind to see what his own success would mean for them all. arthur had been right, of course. once this experiment had reached a success, they would be the ones put to slaughter and oh was it bloody and messy. ] Promises were made, that sort of thing. [ they had spoken of promises once before. then, he did not want to say more and maybe this is still all he will say but. rin was sharp, he'd string the implication of failure quick. ]
I guess that brings me to my point - the Spine. The whole purpose, like I said, was to make a leader - someone to master the rest of her mindless fucking army.
See, everyone had to get out of that place. Lily...Giovanni. They wanted to see real flowers - [ he wouldn't have mentioned that, hell, he shouldn't have mentioned it but the white beneath and around him, the delicate bloom served as catalyst. he sighs. ] - and the hag put me through a big test. First time I met Dog.
Funny thing was, she gave me a choice. I could have said no. But - I thought getting stronger would save everyone else. [ he leans back now, splays fingertips through the petals and finds the cold, smooth surface of the concrete and it feels better. it felt terrible, to have words as save leaving his mouth. he hardly even recognized the intonation of his own voice because saving was the last thing he had done.
hell, even when he thought he had set everyone free - part of a mechanism to cope, at war with self loathing - that wasn't true, was it? he failed. he failed lily, and he failed giovanni. the one that was left alive and still in the clutches of that perverted bitch.
so he lives with it all, guilt and hate as sharp as teeth. ] What you saw, a few days ago? That was the Spine going berserk.